the circle of life

i've learnt alot from my mistakes.people usually say,when you go through your mistakes,you'll learn and it'll get into your thick skulls more.i second that,but think again.people around you will do whatever it takes to prevent those mistakes to land on you,and i couldn't careless.that is really very unhuman-like of me.humans always tend to pretend as though their a humble peasant.but nobody knows you any better than yourself.anyhoo,those self centred parts of you,will eventually burst out and everyone will see it.

so what i can only say now is,what happened has happened.you screw me up,i take it in.so just give me a chance to redeem myself.i know if i say this,it'll sound like i'm over exxagerating,but i'll sitll say it.you mean the world to me,who i am today,is because of what you've taught me.hearing you say those words to me,really broke mny heart into pieces.in a way,i got the point where you told me you love me,alot.but theres a stake above it,which is the whole "i dont love you anymore" part.how could you say that to me?honestly,i know i've screwed up.but be honest,who doesn't?

i'm really really hald you're giving me another chance lar.if i screw this up and i didnt'give you my words,then it's your call.oh and,i admit,what i decided to do last night,was totally outrageous.i wasn't thinking straight and i didn't know what to do.but running away what the last straw for me,but i didn't wanna make you and mum worry.despite the fact that mum has high blood pressure and may get a stroke anytime.i promise you lar,you have my words ok?i'll redeem myself slowly,time by time.every minute matters and you know it.26 june is one hella of an important day,and you know why right?i'll be waiting here with everyone else.

i love you.